Blog Name :ღ Give Me Peace On Earth ღ

-My name is Dina Adnan
-My friend call me DINA or DIEY
-I'm 17th years young on December 5 ^^
-A muslim
-Music Lover ღ
-Hate to be hated
-Love you-Mak, Abah, Angah, Adik ღ Haizun, Yana, Haiza, Pyka..
-Tyka, May, Anis, Eyla
-Such a baby, love to cry over there and here haha..
You know, sometimes in this life, You gonna face so many condition. No matter what it is, just enjoy it. Because once you enjoy it, you will remember for the rest of your life.


-Buy a BIG house for my parents
-To be a singer :p haha
-Make my parents proud of me
-Adventure this worldwide with Alex and Haizun
-Meet Justin^^
-P/S I've met Justin upfront at MTV world stage with ajun! <3
-Marry Justin?

October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 May 2012 January 2013 May 2014 December 2016 January 2017

Haizun | Yana | Haiza | Zaid | Eyla | Izzati | Kak Aqilah | Friend | Friend

Hi to my blog (as I am pretty sure there's no one that gonna read my post lol 😂). It has been two years plus (another two days to 2017) since my last post.

I suddenly feel like I want to update more, because I have more time that I don't want to get wasted. 2014 to 2016 has been hell for me. I just feel like it as so much things had happened to me. I never thought that the old, innocent me, could get easily fooled. I blame myself for being stupid. For being too naive. I shouldn't have trust people.

I think that this entry gon' be me rant all about what had happened to me.. Or maybe not. I won't throw it all out. I still have the part of the old me, that is being mysterious.  Many not know, about my relationship status. And I wont tell. Let's just say that every hook up didn't end with happy endings.

I was so broken, I still am. Not everyone can see that. I was in major depression. But I never seek for medical attention cos I thought that it isn't necessary. I was depressed. All they could say was okay. Just get over it. I pour my heart out but still, they didn't get the clue. I even pour my heart out to wrong person. Now that I realised I've been played, I just hope you know, if I could I would turn back the time.. I never want to be with people who only used me and took me for granted. But it happened.

When will I found my own happiness. When will I meet a person who understands me. The real me. People that used to be with me, claimed that they loves me so much.. But, never want to explore whats in my mind.. They only want me, to know whats in their mind.. They never focus on what I have said.. They never pay any attention..

But then I realised that, there is no use in telling people whats your condition. They will never understands. They will never understands why I trembles and shaking when I 'm in a crowd.. When people looked at me as if I was a monster. They will never looked you in the eyes when you tell your stories like you did when they tell you their stories..

They will make your heart got too attached to them, then they will leave.. No one ever can accept me.. I doubt that anyone could ever want me.. I am not a perfect woman..

But all the tough time I've been through, the bumpy roads, I am so glad that I could make it through until this day. (P/s: I am sorry that my english is bad. I never took MUET.)

I couldn't believe that I actually made it to graduation day. I have finally graduated. All those suicide thoughts did't succeed to bring me down. Guess how much suicide attempt. I am thankful for the chance that god gave me. Suicide is not the answer. Yes, my parents and so called best friend never knew about me. I doubt that I have best friend.

Imagine waking up with eye bags you got from last night's struggles to be alive. Imagine walking alone to class with earpiece on blasting music out loud because all your classmates thought that you are the main reason for all the problem. Walking but never look straight. Lecturer was in front of class but you in the back, didn't understand one bit of what she was saying. You have been outcasted by once who was your sidekick in college. Even a roommate.

No. I never tell anybody. I couldn't sleep and got to sleep for only 1 hours, waking up for class with my nose bleeding. My head hurts so much.. I didn't have anybody to tell my problem. I was in sorcery.

But as the time fades, they knew the truth and I thought it was too late.. We were going to finish our studies.. But I'm thankful for having male friends that would listen to me whenever I felt like shit. I won't let myself let them go.. Thanks for being real..

As the time passed by, I realized that I can't just stay at home doing nothing. I need my own money. I thought of making new friends.. But it was totally the other way around. Being with judgemental people only make me feel sick evenmore.. Two sided face.. Talk nice in front of you but then when you're not around they will talk smack about you.. But I never give them chance to break me down. I admit that there were time where I want this all to end.

I never trust people ever since.. Yeah too late I know. But to trust hurts even more.

No matter where I go, I never fit in. I wasn't belonged to this place. In this world. It is sickening to be in a place with toooo many of hypocrite people.

And I hope that 2017 gon be a good year for me to live well. Thanks to Ellee, Clayrence, Raj, Jaron, for being there for me when everyone else walked out.

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